Down

Rebel. Feeling far from God. Is it possible to forget the First Love? I don't know why. Someone said when her relationship with her earthly father improved, her relationship with our heavenly father become intimate as well. Love is hard. Patience is hard. We want to get what we want...instantly. Joseph waited. Abraham waited. How? I just hope that I can remember His love everyday.

Bringing positive change

Life is uncertain, death is guaranteed, now I'm hoping that I could bring positive change to the people around me, especially my family. I always hope that they would live better. I can't impose anything on them. I can only pray. I know it seems like I'm thinking highly of myself when I hope people surrounding me would strive to make themselves better. I just want them to be happy, to enjoy the abundant life that God has promised each and everyone of us. I hope my life is not wasted.

Tiring...

Half way through the New Testament! Hooray! Other than that, still working on HIIT as usual. But my body is reluctant to wake up early these days, which makes it hard to read poetry in the morning. So far I try to eat breakfast every day. Didn't achieve anything during the weekend, except cooking, coz I felt tired. I wonder what makes me tired. Is it the sight of clutters? Or the realisation that there are areas which are always beyond my control? No matter how hard I try, it will always be at the mercy of others? Should I just live with it? How can I work to solve it when it involves others consent?

Keep going!

I kept my workout plan 5/7 for last week. Where did I stop myself? “I have no time.”

I knew it was an excuse, haha, I just don’t want to do it today.

I will change my workout plan to weekdays only, and leave my weekends to my family.

On the other hand, I’ve been an “extra good” daughter for the weekend. I bought some food, did some cleaning, and some cooking. I could’ve done better if I have a proper to-do list for the weekend. I’m beginning to write down the baby steps I could take in de-cluttering my house.