Throw away some wrong thoughts

Blessings come not because after I've done this or done that.or I must do this or do that before good things happen.

Just believe, God will give u freely,not because of your efforts alone.

Tithing

This few days God remind me about tithing. Tithing is about faith. When I don't tithe,I don't put my faith in God. I do not consider Him as the first in my life. I worry about my finance and do not want to surrender. It takes faith to tithe because it's the first thing u have to do when u receive something. When we do it after we have paid everything, it's not faith. When we aren't sure whether we have enough,it takes faith to tithe. When we tithe, we are under God's protection. We belong to Him.

Priority

Nowadays I'm thinking what is the most important thing in life.
We should take care of the important things instead of urgent things. eliminating less important things from life.whether it's stuff or people.

Time

I'm feeling better physically and mentally.
Time is precious and I'm trying to remove unnecessary stuffs and doing.
Time is a limited resources.
If we think too much whether we should keep sth, just throw it.
And thinking about stuffs that we should do, which one is really important and worth the time.
I'm off fb now,but I spend time on ig and YouTube.
I should reduce my time on them either.
Exercising, relaxing, taking care of my body is more important.

i need to protect myself

i need to protect myself from others, have to beware of people with bad intention.
need to be careful, try to do as much protection for myself.
also need to protect myself emotionally, not to receive so much stress at work.
i dont have to bother for company problem, as it only affect my emotion, and emotion affect my digestive system
i should be happy and not let all these emotion affect me and my health
why should i let my job steal my joy and health
let go let go let go let go let go

i'm not afraid

i thank God that even with the challenges that i faced i don't feel afraid. If God is for us, who can be against us?

But still, I'm praying hard that God will help me through these challenges.

I'm thirst. I'm really eager to hear God's voice. WHat should i do now?

Trust in the Lord.

Feeling of powerlessness

Something bothered me for a long time. I couldn't recall when did it start. I feel powerlessness over all the things I have to do. I always have this thought that "I'm unable to do this" deep down inside my heart. No matter what's the task that was given to me. it could be my perfectionism's fault. But I was really full of confidence a few years back. I believed I can do everything.

This lies that I believe make me miserable because I couldn't do my best in everything I do.

When God gave Aaron and the levites their job as a gift. When I imagine myself as them,I started worrying I might die because I'm unable to do a good job to such a careful extend. That's because I believe in myself more than God. If God pick Aaron and the Levite, of course God knows they can do it. Doesn't God know better? But I always choose to believe my own judgement instead of what God sees in me.

I'm delusional about myself.