HELLO WORLD

This is to write down random thoughts. This is not even meant to be read. There's too much in my head. Many areas of my life are stucked. Why? Because i spent my time with my phone instead of doing some deep thinking. And i just let all the things piling up more and more.

Things i want to sort out:
1. space and stuff: put aside a time to konmari my clothes so that i can do my laundry with ease
2. space and stuff: konmari other stuff in my room ie books
3. financially: how to solve mortgage debt? continue paying or sell it? whether to continue medical insurance?there's news the price going to increase,sigh... how to get side income?
4. financial: to get side income, i'll have to increase my skills...put aside times to learn language...read & write more...read bible for integrity and problem solving skills
5. job: need to solve my job slowly 1 by 1...should i advise company to hire a new staff to take care of the bookeeping? how should i do it? i'm not a detailed person..i really don't like the job....
6. health: i was quite worried about my health...my body has been deteriorating, not the same as when i was young... need to spend TIME to get muscles relax...shoulders and back getting some problem for a long time...been to doctors and spa but quickly relapse again...need to put my attention back on my body instead of social media

One thing i learn recently on the job is that when others try to blame u, u should not blame yourself. You should raise your head and stand up. I suddenly remember my identity in Christ. When you look down upon yourself you only get worse. So, one should always remember one's identity in Christ. We can rise again no matter what. The devil try to steal and rob us. Do not fall into the trap.

10 His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse,
    nor his delight in the legs of the warrior;
11 the Lord delights in those who fear him,
    who put their hope in his unfailing love.

This verse tells me that God does not need me to be strong or very fast/productive. What God want from us is to put our gaze upon Him. Productivity is something that the society put on me. Society praise productivity. But that is no what God will be delighted in. God has his own timing and His timing is good.