Life unexpected

Recently I received a news that may change my future. Having settled down in current job, I was worried of the unknown. I was anxious. I did not know if that was what I want. At that time, I saw this verse: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." I prayed hard, read about Abraham's obedience, and surrendered it to the Lord.

Habit starts small

There's so much focus on habit now, on the internet. Books, blogs, experiments. Not going into the details. The conclusion is to start with something so easy that you could do everyday. It HAS to be so easy that you could laugh at it. For example, jump once a day. When it becomes a habit, you will jump more without hesitation. That explains why I couldn't do all of that I wanted to do earlier. So I will seek something easier. Listen to Korean audio everyday, going to start with 5-10 minutes. Reading one financial book currently. For drawing, the practices gone bad recently, don't know why it reached the peak and after that getting worst. One thing I learn, I only get the best result when I least stress about the result. Such an irony. It's quite hard to relaxed when drawing under expectation. Expectation of myself to myself.

I didn't

I didn't:
1. draw everyday
2. write in Korean
3. write technical analysis

I feel awful. Want to declutter my house. The condition of the house reflects one's life. If it's a mess, then also is the life. That's what I read.

I figure out I can do bridge now. It's a miracle! I didn't train, neither did I push myself. The only thing I did is push ups and walking down the wall. I don't know how I can do it now. I'm very happy with my new skills. :)

Action

Everyday:

1. Draw something
2. Write in Korean
3. Writing technical analysis
....

I should stop at No.3. And then I'll add on when they have become my habits.

Wasting time?

I'm wasting hours in  the office reading blogs. Every day. But, nothing is wasted, right? I'm not sure...

Bringing positive change

Life is uncertain, death is guaranteed, now I'm hoping that I could bring positive change to the people around me, especially my family. I always hope that they would live better. I can't impose anything on them. I can only pray. I know it seems like I'm thinking highly of myself when I hope people surrounding me would strive to make themselves better. I just want them to be happy, to enjoy the abundant life that God has promised each and everyone of us. I hope my life is not wasted.