End of the year

Wow, it's November now!
My achievement:

• finish reading the New Testament
• driving skill
• have a car
• join a dancing class...yoohoo
• have a job

Other challenges I would like to do in the future:

• setting up a professional blog
• learn to speak another language
• travel more 

Habit starts small

There's so much focus on habit now, on the internet. Books, blogs, experiments. Not going into the details. The conclusion is to start with something so easy that you could do everyday. It HAS to be so easy that you could laugh at it. For example, jump once a day. When it becomes a habit, you will jump more without hesitation. That explains why I couldn't do all of that I wanted to do earlier. So I will seek something easier. Listen to Korean audio everyday, going to start with 5-10 minutes. Reading one financial book currently. For drawing, the practices gone bad recently, don't know why it reached the peak and after that getting worst. One thing I learn, I only get the best result when I least stress about the result. Such an irony. It's quite hard to relaxed when drawing under expectation. Expectation of myself to myself.

Messy

Just realised that life can be messy here and there sometimes, accept that.

Follow up

Omg. Wow, I can't believe this. I received an inbox saying that "I know you can do it coz you're a smart student." It's amazing. It's just like I only have to write things on here and waiting for it to happen. Weeeee!

Believe

I want someone(at least) to have faith in me. Telling me that they know I can do it, when I'm not sure. When people told me that it was really encouraging. But there are times I don't believe in them, too. It is better to hope on yourself rather than hoping on others, because who will have bigger hope on you other than yourself? I hope that's not true. I really hope others have bigger hope in me than myself.

I don’t believe I can drive

I want to drive, but I don’t believe I can drive.

If I want to change my life, I need to fix this. We are reluctant to change; it scares us to go out of our comfort zone.

I have gotten my license 5 years ago, and have forgotten all the skills by now. My family doesn’t have a car. I can’t find people to teach me. I don’t have time… As if I can’t control my situation. I decided to look deeper into this. I figured out that I lack of self confidence. I don’t believe in myself. I don’t believe that I can master the skill. I always feel very stupid since I became an adult.

I know I need to change this negative thought to “I know I can drive”. It’s hard. But Henry Ford says “Whether you think you can, or you can’t… either way, you’re right.” I’m starting by asking people to teach me. And I didn’t reject even though I need to practice driving at 6.30am. Practicing even just a little bit did help to boost my self-esteem. I’m looking forward to more driving lessons.