God is good

God is reminding me to be humble and that He is the One who protect me. Everything is for my own good.

Imperfect

There are times I would feel dumb, that I am not good in anything. Though this is not true and I don't want to believe it, it's still hard to think that "I am great." Crap. First of all, I actually need to accept that I am imperfect. Do not compare myself with others, instead compare myself with yesterday.

Continuum gratitude

I like the feeling when something good trust upon me. I am going to remind myself of this feeling every moment. Thanking God over and over again.

Transformation

Transformation doesn't happen overnight. It will take months, or years, to get what I really want. I am learning to love the process, the phase of transformation. I don't have to wait for the result to be happy. The process itself should be happy. I don't know why I was so eager about my achievement before this. As if I can only be happy when I get to those stage in life.

"I am stuck." is also a negative thought

Wow. I found out that "I'm stuck" is also a lie. I didn't realise this before. I'm progressing, I'm growing, I eat, I sleep, I read Bible more often, I'd like to talk to God more often, exercise more often... feeling like a child again in running towards my goal. I'm definitely not "stuck". As a child, I was not afraid to chase after my dream. But not so now. There is still something there that is blocking me. I don't know what it is. Something is hidden deep inside. I no longer have the same passion, or excitement towards my dream as I would have as a child. I really want to have that excitement and thrill again.